Dreams

Dreams…

This summer it seems everyone I run into asks me what my dream is? I’ve been asking myself that for a little over  a year now. I cannot pick just one thing. What is even more frustrating, is feeling like I never really dreamed big as a child. I knew I’d go to college. But for what? The whole focus was just on getting in and getting it paid for. Yes I have dreams of where I’d like to live, what I’d like to be doing, how I want my children to turn out. Places I’d like to visit, etc.

But really, now what? How do I get there? I’m almost 15 years out of college and feel like I still don’t know what I want to do with my life. Torn. Torn between being the picture of a responsible adult who stays at the same job so that I have a retirement and am providing all of the American Dream for my family and following what’s really in my heart. Torn. Torn because obviously I want to provide a life for my children that is beyond just getting by, but also because I want to live in the moment and enjoy the whole beauty of the world and share that with my family. I don’t want to live in the future. Because when I do that, I’ve thrown away the present.

So here’s the list of what I’ve decided I need to do to live for today based on my priorities:

  1. Exercise.
  2. Read: Must be something I want to read, not something I have to read or feel like I have to read
  3. Play games with my family: Interactive, board games, charades, or our new family favorite, Pictionary
  4. Intentionally spend positive, life giving time with my husband (no to-do lists, discussing raising children, or politics)
  5. Rest and enjoy the beauty around me

 

I’ve not thrown out the dream of traveling or living other places to experience our world and share it with my children, but focusing so much on how or if I’ll ever get to do that spoils the current reality.

What would you put on your list to make your life more intentional and enjoying the moment?