I have received many texts, messages and cards asking how I’m feeling.
I answer truthfully, “I feel like crap. I’m exhausted and sleepy nearly all of the time and I have a headache that feels like a sinus headache. At its best, it only hurts when I move (this includes just moving my head up/down and left/right).
The looks I get when I tell someone this face to face are more than surprise. It’s shock. I’m not sure if that’s because in pretty much every surgery/procedure the expectation is that the patient’s quality of life and overall health should be improving. So after they close their gaping mouths, or if I’m responding via written communication, I let them know I am grateful, but this was as is to be expected.
Even I have to remind myself at those times when I’m feeling exceptionally run down and in pain, that this is what we want and it is what is expected for at least the first six weeks after the surgery AND I should expect it every time we step down my medicine.
Other ways my life is altered right now is the fact that I have to go to the bathroom every two hours. I’m releasing all the water I’ve been retaining due to the tumor. sleeping flat, on my sides, or on my stomach are only tolerable for a short time, if at all. No bending, stooping, straining or bearing down. I cannot sneeze/cough. If I have to i need to leave my mouth open. I cannot bear down or do any straining at all.
So, two weeks out my recap:
I’m still tired; but can only sleep for about 2 hour blocks of time before I need to get up, use the bathroom.
Headache is still hanging on and I have times throughout the day where the severity is as bad as it was a few hours post surgery.
My ice pack is still my favorite bedtime companion. It relieves a lot of the pain in my head.
What other questions do you have? Today i have my follow up with the ENT. Praying for good things and for her to see healing.
In two more weeks, I will update you maybe with some pictures of changes that are taking place as my body remembers what it should feel like with out the stress hormone at sky-high levels all of the time.
Lastly, I want to thank everyone in our home group, The Fellowship, our church family at Cornerstone, and my other friends who have been a source of physical, mental and spiritual support. The group who deserves a big shout out is my work family, Moreland Ridge teachers and staff. Today I was surprised with gift cards and gluten-free snacks to aid in my recovery.
Please take and receive my heartfelt gratitude for each one of you who have reached out, prayed, and read my blog. You all are important to my family and me.